MAKHLUK TUHAN PALING SEMPURNA (SARCASM)

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Hidup koq ga bisa ya tenang2 ajah ?

Selesai 1 masalah, dateng lagi masalah baru. Malahan masalah kayak dateng bertubi2. Mungkin lebay kedengerannya. But you have to know, I live with a lot of anger and dissapointment inside.

Mungkin orang - orang di sekitar gw semuanya merasa jadi Makhluk Tuhan Paling Sempurna, which I never care actually. But when they feel like they need to change me to be like them, my life is like HELL.

Where can I find my freedom ?

If life wasn't about money, maybe I am now not sitting at bed now. May be would be in other side of the world.

Mungkin gw bego kali ya and I can't do anything about that. 

I'm a person who never trully love anything, May be I'm selfish, I can't accept critic. I really don't think people should care everything I do with my life, 

STOP YELLING AT ME TO CHANGE coz I don't think it ever work....

I'm not perfect and I don't wanna be

I'm stuck with hypocrite people who think that he's so perfect that he can change me and also one woman that maybe someday will get karma for what she's done and I would be lucky if I can watch it.... 

NEW YEAR COME WITH NEW RESOLUTIONS

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2016 

Year 2015 is the most wonderful year all time, I can say my life is so great that I don't know what more to ask. Too many wonderful memories, too many things to be grateful. Those are the highlights :

Those happy times make me so thankful for having a lot of good friends, officemates, family and boyfriend. I really hope 2016 will be better and I believe there are many things to achieve. So, these are my 2016 resolutions : (WITH REVIEW A YEAR LATER)

1.  TAKING A BREVET CLASS  X AT THE END OF THE DAY, I DON'T THINK IT'S NECESSARY :P

2.  FINDING WAYS TO GET MORE MONEY √  HAPPENED A BIT

3.  SAVING MORE MONEY AND GAMBLING WITH INVESTATION √

4.  HAVING MORE TIME WITH FRIENDS √  YA MAY BE 

5.  GETTING HEALTHY AND LOSE WEIGHT X NOT REALLY

6.  GETTING ORGANIZED √  A BIT IMPROVEMENT, I GUESS

7.  DO MORE FOR MY FAMILY  NOT ME TO ASSUME

8.  CAREFUL IN EVERY THING THAT I DO AND IN MAKING DECISION √ YA MAY BE

Those are the plans that I has to do in 2016. I wish I can achieve them all and I can be a better human in this year.

Thank you 2015, welcome 2016

Love, 

ANGEL

I'm Scared, God

Dear God,

It's been so long since I feel this insecurity in life. Suddenly got my world full of doubt, I'm not that sure again about my future. I'm so scared of everything I've ever chosen, is it right or is it not that right ? I'm scared, God. Will I be happy or will I always trying hard to be happy? Will I do it anyhow or do I have to make changes?

Dear God please help me. I don't know what I want, I don't know what my future might offer. I'm scared. Everything is getting ruined and I don't know what to do...

I wanna fight for this, showing my loyalty and I'm not gonna give up for it...

I'm scared, God but I choose to be strong instead...

China Journey 14 - 22 Juli 2015

Liburan Idul Fitri 2015 saya dan keluarga berkesempatan mengunjungi negeri China , which is my father's dream to go there. It was our first time there so we were excited. So here the story goes...

Day 1 (BEIJING)

Setelah menempuh 6 jam perjalanan dan 10 jam transit di Singapore, sampailah kita semua di kota BEIJING sekitar jam 7 pagi dalam keadaan kucel coz we were not getting enough rest on the plane. So, first place we visit is TEMPLE OF HEAVEN. 

One Circumstances

I don't remember being myself. I don't remember which character I am used to or which I should be now. I feel like I am in one circumstances which I don't feel comfortable about myself coz I've been hiding behind the mask to fit in with people.

Many times in my life I feel like I'm the right one, feel like I can read people's character and they are wrong all the time according to my 'smart' mind. I consider myself a leader while I'm just a clumsy girl craving for attention. I've been searching for peace but usually end up make things worse. I don't know who to trust, I don't even trust myself. I love people but I hate them behind, like I love to talk more about the person's bitchy attitude than their kindness. I'm one jealous bitch on everybody who has more friends, more money and more look. 

I even be mad to everyone around me because I love to have power and people can't control me. I don't wanna end up leaving best thing coz too busy chasing unreal thing. I just wanna be faithful. Life's still young.

P.S. I just wanna get your attention.