Senin, 16 Februari 2015

ALL WE HAVE IS THIS MOMENT

All we have is this moment
to put the love into motion
Yesterday is history
So why don't you be here with me ?

Four years ago, life was one messed up rubix cube waiting to be solved. Like a total disaster without direction and no clue how to fix it. I was nothing but a dreamer wanting to have a fairy tale life. But in one time, I ended up feeling like a rubbish. I had a trust issue, even until now I can't easily trust people, I'm a Paranoid (with a capital P).

Four years ago, I made some mistakes that made me growing up. I didn't listen to what people said because I was a stubborn one. I was lost in between 'yes' or 'not at all' and I said 'yes' all the time. I said yes to trouble and wavy life. I said yes to wrong turns instead of going straight. The heart wanted what it want, that's what I thought.

Through this day, I wake up to something I called logic. Fighting for something I love won't always go smooth, but I learn what's worthy in life. People might call me arrogant and heartless coz I'm easily judging people who still do what I have left. I still don't understand how I should live, still don't know how to deal with life. What's different is I use my brain more than my heart this time. The heart still always be hungry for big things, but the brain tells me to take it slow. I don't always come up strong, but I see life with a different point of view. I learn to earn not to spend, though it's hard for me still. I put myself first. I still have a trust issue but I handle it quite well. In one way or another, I feel I have myself under control. So, I'm a grateful one. 

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